hey there kids. ..

wanted to let u all know im not dead.  i just had mah little baby. .. shelby lee durnell. .. yay!!!!  maybe one day ill put some pix on here but ya never know . ..

ok, so just because i havent updated in forever doesnt mean i have a lot to say. ..

see ya in another 5 months. .

loves

Well, tis been awhile. .. not too much to say. ..

Amie has strep throat. .. it sux dearly. ..

Anywho. . should be getting mah car tommorrow. .. Hopefully it isn't anymore broken than it already is or I shall be quite heated. Well kids, sadly tis all I got for now. ..

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Hey there kids. .. I was tryin to wait till more interesting schtuff happened to tell u all aboot, but. .. I couldn't control myself any longer. ..  hee

I'ma have mah car Monday. . I'm sooooo x-cited. Got to talk to Kim and Dustin today. YAY!! Wow, that's really all I got for ya today. .. and so I leave u with this: 

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah in ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling make it go away,
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?'

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
For You
For You
For You

Well, lemme see woot have I been up to lately. .. not all too much.  Took the baby swimming with Justin and Joe today. .. and Johnnie(obviously)  Anywho, can't wait to get mah car and such, but I don't think I'll make enuff to do it this time kids. .. don't worry tho. . soon soon. 

ok, kids, twas the best I could do for today. .

ENJOY